mewithoutyou is too good. im not going to waste space tlakin abou them but i mean, get it. its again too good.
nowwww down to businees

8month left int the school year, Life starts in july. Eastcoast trip befor summer school, thennn schooll. 4 years of that anddd teacher, then i move. away. far away. so far that il never again smell the asphalt burn from outside, so far i wont get roadraged by the cars here. so far thta people wont know where corona is! oo but until then i must wait. wait it out. atleast i have good friends to help me.

saaave meee

does anyone know what glutiny is?? its where you eat to the point of where your eating not to satisfy your natural craving for someother form of enegry, but to eat because its fun. why dont we hear about this in church on sundays anymore? i dont know haha. but all i know is i t is a sin, and is easily avoidable..so im avoiding it, from now on i eat to provide for my body not to prvide my craving. it wil be hard it will take some getting used to, but think about iy..youll save money youll be healthier. i mean God mustof set that rule for a reason..haha im deciding to notice this law. besides its gross. just a quick comment, God bless yall

i just got a new cell phone yall. number is the same, but i atleast have a camera now! haha send me a picture :)

ok, i know i say this like every month..but why do i write in this thing? haha its kinda embarasing, o well.

im stressing out right now, when am i not... i need to move, fast!

Soo nowww its time for that "end of summer update" right?
it was good! good meaning the best summer. Surely the fastest summer, by far. the Best part of the ending of summer is that windy, dry, warm nights, darkness, leaves, coats, jeans, fires, the nocturnal closeness you have with friends, the bonding...haha (lame word) im excited for this fall. thats what summer has been, a waiting sesh for fall.
ITS COMING!

today was good day. i love cookies i loke chicken nuggets, i love iced triple mochas, i love being with her, even though im not anticipating my 18th birthday like have my last birthdays, i still cant wait to buy those ciggars with cameron and just hold them and say, im 18. well goodnight to yall.

last night was sure fun. work was not bad at all. met some "gay" people...hahaha and learned some cool stuff. yay hopefully i can spend some time with my esays befor work :)

i made a screenname midnightneedle , youll probably never see me on though

hahaha is it worng to think your sister is a fake? haha i guess not they all live in there perfect fake world. haha good for them. hopefully reality hits them in the face oneday. my mom ge5s mad to easy, my dad gets worked up to fast, my sister dosent care (but we already went over her). is this family allowed to be called disfunctional? probably not, but forsome reason id like to.

my mom let me out last night! haha the only bad thing is i know she is going to be gay tonight..haha anyways lets get off this subject for a while. im eating a bagel befor i go to work. later no one

i dont know what to say, but i want to say somehting...

AS a sweater poses mittnes and unsuspected smiles, little moses driped down the stream of the nile. and a thumbling reply and awkword rigid laugh and im carried hepless by my floating basket raft. and or a flavor in my mind goes back and forth between sweeter then any wine yet bitter then mustard grain. playing dark as honey doo pumped for nickel bread, the trap i set for you seemd to caught my leg instead.
i do not exist, only you exist

my home is depressing

told you
i cant go to nfg, now the weather is going to get hot. mewithout you will pobably die in a car crash, ehh whatever. ill be on my on. one more year

its like my haert rate is constantly beating from being excited or like my body is antisipating some extrodinary event...wel i guess there are a few extrordinary ecents abot to happen. mewihtout yous cd comes out in a few months and nfg/the early november/cartel tickets in posession kinda. new job is beter then old job. the weather is good. my dad wasnt mean today or last night. we ran out of water at my house but i found some secret water i hid a while ago..haha i dont know everyhitng is going so well. the only bad thing about this is its going to all come down soon. it always does so i cant get to excited. dont let me get to excited ok

i woke up in corona, ca this morning. but somehting was weird. that usual lawn mower, or phone cal didnt wake me up. the cool breaze that sneaked threw my little window woke me... i was kinda weirded out and thoght i was dreaming so i went and took off the screen and sat on the gazeboo. it was nice. then i went to work, and then a bike ride to orange county with david (the best path to take with friends!) then to mikes and played n64. i miss being little. but i cant wait to grow up. my 18th b-day is coming up. the present is being able to do things without my parents permission. i need more jesus. can you tell. hmm mabey ill go read. lates

just a little confused. went on a bike ride today, i have to say that THE LATS FEWQ DAYS HAVE BEEN BEAUTIFULL! dont yal agree, i mean the heat has died down, the sky was bluer, clowds!!! i mean we havent had nice clowd in a while! mmmm thank the Lord, shalom everyone

they wonder why im always gone/ my parents that is. well i cant tell them, because there is no wining, they dont want me to have a fun summer. because its impossible with them as parents. my house IS DEPRESSING! there is no leaving it though. if im home all the time, everyhitng is good, except me. im sitting around getting fat on the computer or watching t.v/ so i say can i go. "o sure" i leave, come home. my parents are dicks the rest of the week. and the reason i dont like people over, well is because of them. they cant just lossen up or get some lives themselvs. mabey if they had friends that they actualyl hung out with life would be better. all i ask for is that when i do get to that age i dont want to be like them. I WANT OUT.....they make me angry. but its a sad angry

it sure is weird. i got 30 hours without sleep and now, when i do want to rest my head,reboot, clear my mind. i cant fall asleep. the more i think about it, the more i hate this thing. i know i know, i do this all the time. but i mean, its gay. hahaha woo