this is the journal

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 03:39:50 GMT

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 21:42:44 GMT

mewithoutyou is too good. im not going to waste space tlakin abou them but i mean, get it. its again too good.
nowwww down to businees

8month left int the school year, Life starts in july. Eastcoast trip befor summer school, thennn schooll. 4 years of that anddd teacher, then i move. away. far away. so far that il never again smell the asphalt burn from outside, so far i wont get roadraged by the cars here. so far thta people wont know where corona is! oo but until then i must wait. wait it out. atleast i have good friends to help me.

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 21:56:05 GMT

sr. year is going waaay to good. i smeel somthting fishy.
o well, pictures from lastweek kinda :)
the mask the hike
the view the dump
the breaking bag..

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 20:37:00 GMT

saaave meee

Eating to the point of no return

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 07:19:11 GMT

does anyone know what glutiny is?? its where you eat to the point of where your eating not to satisfy your natural craving for someother form of enegry, but to eat because its fun. why dont we hear about this in church on sundays anymore? i dont know haha. but all i know is i t is a sin, and is easily avoidable..so im avoiding it, from now on i eat to provide for my body not to prvide my craving. it wil be hard it will take some getting used to, but think about iy..youll save money youll be healthier. i mean God mustof set that rule for a reason..haha im deciding to notice this law. besides its gross. just a quick comment, God bless yall

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 22:10:31 GMT

i just got a new cell phone yall. number is the same, but i atleast have a camera now! haha send me a picture :)

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 08:28:20 GMT

ok, i know i say this like every month..but why do i write in this thing? haha its kinda embarasing, o well.

im stressing out right now, when am i not... i need to move, fast!

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 01:24:00 GMT

Soo nowww its time for that "end of summer update" right?
it was good! good meaning the best summer. Surely the fastest summer, by far. the Best part of the ending of summer is that windy, dry, warm nights, darkness, leaves, coats, jeans, fires, the nocturnal closeness you have with friends, the bonding...haha (lame word) im excited for this fall. thats what summer has been, a waiting sesh for fall.
ITS COMING!

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 07:34:53 GMT

today was good day. i love cookies i loke chicken nuggets, i love iced triple mochas, i love being with her, even though im not anticipating my 18th birthday like have my last birthdays, i still cant wait to buy those ciggars with cameron and just hold them and say, im 18. well goodnight to yall.

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 19:16:27 GMT

last night was sure fun. work was not bad at all. met some "gay" people...hahaha and learned some cool stuff. yay hopefully i can spend some time with my esays befor work :)

O YA!

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 02:45:43 GMT

i made a screenname midnightneedle , youll probably never see me on though

Fri, 11 Aug 2006 01:34:25 GMT

hahaha is it worng to think your sister is a fake? haha i guess not they all live in there perfect fake world. haha good for them. hopefully reality hits them in the face oneday. my mom ge5s mad to easy, my dad gets worked up to fast, my sister dosent care (but we already went over her). is this family allowed to be called disfunctional? probably not, but forsome reason id like to.

Wed, 09 Aug 2006 17:32:01 GMT

my mom let me out last night! haha the only bad thing is i know she is going to be gay tonight..haha anyways lets get off this subject for a while. im eating a bagel befor i go to work. later no one

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 04:15:52 GMT

i dont know what to say, but i want to say somehting...

AS a sweater poses mittnes and unsuspected smiles, little moses driped down the stream of the nile. and a thumbling reply and awkword rigid laugh and im carried hepless by my floating basket raft. and or a flavor in my mind goes back and forth between sweeter then any wine yet bitter then mustard grain. playing dark as honey doo pumped for nickel bread, the trap i set for you seemd to caught my leg instead.
i do not exist, only you exist

my home is depressing

Fri, 04 Aug 2006 03:33:42 GMT

told you
i cant go to nfg, now the weather is going to get hot. mewithout you will pobably die in a car crash, ehh whatever. ill be on my on. one more year

have you ever been so excited for so long?

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 01:24:43 GMT

its like my haert rate is constantly beating from being excited or like my body is antisipating some extrodinary event...wel i guess there are a few extrordinary ecents abot to happen. mewihtout yous cd comes out in a few months and nfg/the early november/cartel tickets in posession kinda. new job is beter then old job. the weather is good. my dad wasnt mean today or last night. we ran out of water at my house but i found some secret water i hid a while ago..haha i dont know everyhitng is going so well. the only bad thing about this is its going to all come down soon. it always does so i cant get to excited. dont let me get to excited ok

ill try...

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 06:28:42 GMT

i woke up in corona, ca this morning. but somehting was weird. that usual lawn mower, or phone cal didnt wake me up. the cool breaze that sneaked threw my little window woke me... i was kinda weirded out and thoght i was dreaming so i went and took off the screen and sat on the gazeboo. it was nice. then i went to work, and then a bike ride to orange county with david (the best path to take with friends!) then to mikes and played n64. i miss being little. but i cant wait to grow up. my 18th b-day is coming up. the present is being able to do things without my parents permission. i need more jesus. can you tell. hmm mabey ill go read. lates

im ok now

Mon, 31 Jul 2006 02:47:17 GMT

just a little confused. went on a bike ride today, i have to say that THE LATS FEWQ DAYS HAVE BEEN BEAUTIFULL! dont yal agree, i mean the heat has died down, the sky was bluer, clowds!!! i mean we havent had nice clowd in a while! mmmm thank the Lord, shalom everyone

they wonder..

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 14:21:54 GMT

they wonder why im always gone/ my parents that is. well i cant tell them, because there is no wining, they dont want me to have a fun summer. because its impossible with them as parents. my house IS DEPRESSING! there is no leaving it though. if im home all the time, everyhitng is good, except me. im sitting around getting fat on the computer or watching t.v/ so i say can i go. "o sure" i leave, come home. my parents are dicks the rest of the week. and the reason i dont like people over, well is because of them. they cant just lossen up or get some lives themselvs. mabey if they had friends that they actualyl hung out with life would be better. all i ask for is that when i do get to that age i dont want to be like them. I WANT OUT.....they make me angry. but its a sad angry

Fri, 28 Jul 2006 05:52:24 GMT

it sure is weird. i got 30 hours without sleep and now, when i do want to rest my head,reboot, clear my mind. i cant fall asleep. the more i think about it, the more i hate this thing. i know i know, i do this all the time. but i mean, its gay. hahaha woo

Wed, 26 Jul 2006 08:06:35 GMT

one last word befor i hit the sack...
dont eat chicken wings with cameron befor watchin diehard..it just makes you want to fall asleep and cry because your stomach hurts so bad

Sun, 23 Jul 2006 17:12:20 GMT

DID EVERYONE FEAL THE EARTH QUAKE!??? its shook the heck out of my room, and droped my cell cel phone and portable air conditionare. i guess its because i live in the attic and its not as sterty as the other roms in the house. the waether hase been so werid, shucks. i mean monsoons, earthquakes, asteriods, tsunamis, floods, locust, blood in the river, i heard the sea parted, oh and frogs....ok im kidding but its still werid. <----THE BEST MOVIE!
i start starbucks tomarow, im scared

Thu, 06 Jul 2006 04:17:21 GMT

im surprised im not dead yet, all the creamcheese and fried tortilla things ive comnsumed this month is more then anyone should eat an entire life, but they are good. i hate work, you never get to have fun becuase when ever you work people do somehtig out of the ordinary... hmm o well i guess life is full of it huh,, who am i to talk about life.. im only 17. yay next month ill be an "adult"

Tue, 04 Jul 2006 19:52:11 GMT

wo you can tell eisley has an impact in new found glorys new song... not the same as there old stuff, but not bad id have to admit.

Fri, 30 Jun 2006 02:21:42 GMT

i figured somehting out today while doing homework, the reason why i havent had such a good time this summer. well the time i wanted...my parents. i love them to death, but at the same time i cant stand it. ive learned to not asl them for anyhting. the answer will always be no most of the time i should say. if theyt say yes then theyll be mad the next day, i heard my dad say "give them a foot and they take 3 miles.." to my grandma on the phone, its theyre fault ...hmm i just want to be able to go out and know my boundries and not have to worry.. ahh im getting worked up. adios yall